Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Critical Response #3


            As with every weekly set of readings, I find myself both amazed at everything I am learning and astonished by all of the things I have failed to notice around me. Perhaps tiredness and hunger at this hour may be a contributing factor, but I am so frustrated with myself for my lack of accountability when it comes to knowledge of social issues. I regrettably announce that the last social science class I took was in high school 3 years ago, and up until now I have been taking purely engineering courses. I take responsibility for letting “my degrees” dictate which courses I take, rather than taking an initiative to explore important social disciplines.
            As mentioned in the GLQ journal, there comes a time where we all must “suspicion” and critically analyze how our experiences and background may influence our ability to see clearly. I admit that my cultural lens may be rather thick, but as mentioned previously by Morales, it is just as important to realize where knowledge is lacking than to know where it is present.
            Throughout reading this collection of essays, I could not help but notice that I had a difficult time identifying with the underlying message of the writing: that there should be a pairing of queer and Native studies. As a white heterosexual female, I found it difficult to align myself with many experiences the authors were writing about.  As mentioned in the Poetry and Sexuality essay by James Stevens in GLQ, it is proclaimed: “ I have not suffered the oppression that my forefathers and foremothers, or my queer historical brothers and sisters, suffered. I can give voice to history and speak to what has happened, but I cannot speak as though it has happened to me.” Although I cannot relate to certain oppressions or identities spoken of in class, I realize it is my duty to learn and go forth into society and promote this type of history by engaging in constructive conversations. I do not wish to be put in positions of oppression or racial discouragement, but there is simply no way for me to truly understand how others feel without experiencing them for myself. I am frustrated that I am not able to relate, and I am also frustrated that I know so little about topics in this course.  
            By taking this class, I also realize how little I know about myself beyond my hobbies, dislikes, strengths, and weaknesses. I am amazed in class how students are so in touch with their feelings, values, and realization of personal oppressions. As mentioned in the My Father, Cynthia Conroy essay, the daughter believes the dad has much more clarity about his/her own inner life and psychic needs than she does about her own. As a cross dressing male, he is constantly faced with social hurdles and personal struggles. Even though I am privileged in many areas, it is still my responsibility as a woman to remain proud and powerful; taking note of ways I am oppressed and paying tribute to the past that has shaped my opportunities. This brings up a point also mentioned throughout the essays; the idea of knowing who your land belonged to and their corresponding stories.
            The interview with Virgie was a refreshing way to conclude the set of readings, and I especially enjoyed the part where she mentioned the idea of the body as a political entity. Our body is our own, and we can do with it what we it. This reinforces the idea I discussed earlier where we each have the ability to go into the world and act as vehicles for the histories that go untold. 

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